I think maybe not

.

Sometimes,

When weather is grey and heavy

And evenings close in

Stealing light and distance

.

It is easy to become

Disenchanted with this life that I have

With the body and mind that I have

With what I think I have

.

It is easy to want it all to end

To be released from

These seemingly relentless cycles of self-perpetuating perception

Of who and what and where I feel I am

.

To stand outside of this trapped-ness

This senseless-ness

This selflessness

For good

.

Despite love

Despite plenty

Despite loss

Despite beauty

.

It is difficult to know which way to turn

What actual movements to make

Without hurting one or other or both

Within this shifting world of conscience-ness

.

What defines my heart

From where this head seeks wisdom?

What determines and empowers

such obviously complex but utterly specific notions?

.

Is it science

Or intuition

Or art

Or all that reveals?

.

Or should I just become according to my joy

In relation to this ongoing climatic change

That reaches out beyond any sense of right and wrong

To catalyze a step-by-step survival guide?

.

So does the deer reflect,

Does the bear neglect,

Does the earth select

Or judge?

.

I think maybe not.

.

oystercatchers; fishing net monster; charcoal drawing – northam (p ward 2013)oystercatchers; fishing net monster; charcoal drawing – northam (p ward 2013)

rain blown:wind blown – northam (p ward 2013)rain blown/wind blown – northam (p ward 2013)

burnt umber 1 – fremington quay (p ward 2013)burnt umber 1 – fremington quay (p ward 2013)

burnt umber 2 – fremington quay (p ward 2013)burnt umber 2 – fremington quay (p ward 2013)

hail – northam (p ward 2013)hail – northam (p ward 2013)

storm coming in – northam (p ward 2013)storm passing – northam (p ward 2013)

© P Ward 2013

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